This is starting as our adoption story but it is so much more
than that! Our story is nothing special- but it's our story- our real story of heartache, struggles, and a whole lot of healing, love, and grace from
Jesus! We invite you to walk beside us! We hope we convey who we are, how we
got here and how our amazing God still worked all that out for His good! Our
story is best understood once you know where we come from. So please check out
our individual stories once they hit the page.
Though we talked and prayed and prayed and prayed about
adoption for almost a year now, in one text conversation between us The
Lord pushed us from hopes and dreams to a broken heart for babies and their
birthmothers. He broke my heart and healed it all in the same hard cry! The
kind of cry that comes from your gut, rips you to pieces and you're still crying
when you wake up! I saw pieces of myself in those beautiful birthmother stories!
This is the exact text sent between my husband and me with
tears streaming down my face:
Me: Last night I read birthmother stories... They were so
beautiful and sad all at once but what hit me most was my overwhelming love and
gratitude for you! Most of these girls were just like me, in college, no job,
family telling them one thing, society telling them another, nothing to their
actual name but unlike them God gave me, you! You who without realizing
fiercely loved me and our baby! You who would never say this but you have been
the spiritual leader of our family way before it ever was official! You
honestly are the only one who has ever shown me Jesus' relenting love and
redeeming grace! You who loves our family with a love most people will never
know! 5 years ago when I had no idea how beautiful our life together as a
family would turn out! I am beyond grateful God gave you to me! That you held
me close and just loved me! And you still do that to this day! And it hit
me last night why a private open adoption of our beautiful newborn baby is what
He is calling our family to, that though you and I need to talk about it more,
God is calling us to an open adoption! That its not just His child that He is
giving us to parent that we get to show His unfailing love to but also our
sweet baby's birthmother! The overwhelming feeling I have for you and our life
together is beyond my words! But most girls don't have that, and the selfless
choice she will make for us is well worth the money, time, and tears! But
if I learn nothing else through this process is nothing in this world can
compare to how Jesus used you to love me, just love me even at my darkest over
the past 8 years! I would be lost without you because you are the leader God
gave me! Thank you for this beautifully amazing life we get live together! I am
so in love with you! And love you more and more everyday! Okay, I got it all
out... Maybe I can stop crying now! I am so proud of you! You are a better man
than I usually give you credit for!
My husband: Whew...you trying to make me cry at work?
Haha...you are my heart and I love our story and even more I love our family
and even it's chaos! Babe I just want you to keep your head up and help me to
make you stronger. Our baby story hurts when we look at the past but God does
all things for HIS good not our wants! I love how you love me and Avery and I
know we will figure out the craziness of adopting! I love you woman more than
you may ever know but you and Avery are my heart!
That day we realized adoption was less about us- more about
babies and their birthmother- even more about Our Creator and Lord, Jesus
Christ who has always relentlessly loved us with this incomparable redeeming
grace!
“I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you” John 14:18
“I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you” John 14:18
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